After a full circle, you are back to the starting point

It's been awhile that I wrote here.

No words can describe the feelings now. After drifting for more than 5 years, only hoping that somehow to be recognize the hard work, finally realizes that one has been drifting in circles and the true reality is, the surroundings tells you, you come back to the starting point again. 

Positively, it's a new starting point. You can make it work in a new start. But it is not a fresh new start.

The feeling of abandonment is deeply carved into the mind and soul, in the most helpless way. Nothing can change the outcome. The finale. The end.

Yet it is comforting that this passage come into my mind :

“The Lord will deliver them to you, and you must do to them all that I have commanded you. Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.””

Deuteronomy 31:5-6 NIV

Whatever outcome happens, i surrender all to God for He is my shepherd, my guide in this wildness.

“For the Lamb at the center of the throne will be their shepherd; ‘he will lead them to springs of living water.’ ‘And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes.’ ””

Revelation 7:17 NIV

Shepherd of my soul, I give You full control, 

Wherever You may lead, I willl follow.

I have made the choice, to listen for Your voice, 

Wherever You may lead, I will go.

Be it in a quiet pasture, or by a gentle stream,

The Shepherd of my soul is by my side.

Should I face a nightly mountain, 

Or a valley dark and deep.

The Shepherd of my soul will be my guide.

By Marty Nystrom

Bible Verse: Trusting God...

Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life. Rescue me from my enemies, Lord, for I hide myself in you. Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground. For your name’s sake, Lord, preserve my life; in your righteousness, bring me out of trouble. In your unfailing love, silence my enemies; destroy all my foes, for I am your servant. (Psalm 143:8-12 NIV)

Amen! 

Freshly Brewed Coffee!

Freshly grinded and brewed coffee is the best! 

Good morning Everyone!

4 coffee spoons to grind.

Over filter, pour hot water ( once boiled, wait for about 1mins for the temp to drop a little ) , pour to the jar level 5 cups.

I used Hario Coffee Jar who has a marker that easily to gauged.

Smell heavenly!

Bible Verses ~ Reflection

A person may think their own ways are right, but the Lord weighs the heart. To do what is right and just is more acceptable to the Lord than sacrifice. (Proverbs 21:2-3 NIV)

Today's verse made me think. Serving may be sacrifice in my point of view to the Lord on my time , effort and at times my sleep. However, this verse made me think ... Think. That, when i do it , 

Do I grumble ?  - Yes

Am I late? - Yes

Do I struggle to wake up ? Yes

At times even struggling to find excuses not to go... 

I know that Lord doesn't need my little sacrifice. That He doesn't need me to do anything for Him.

Things that I do and words at times I said are not right, not just. I can only pray for God to forgive me and set my ways and lead me to the path of righteousness.

Let these two verses be constantly pondering in my heart and mind in everything that I do.

In Jesus Name I pray, 

Amen.